I used to hear voices , feel touches , see stuff

[Rodiel]

I was young , maybe 11-12 when it first started , i was walking home from school (school wasnt so far so i startes going alone like from 4th grade)  i heared my mum calling my name when i was on the home street i was maybe 50 meters away from home , so i thought my mom was in the street , calling me , i looked around , street was empty ... so my second guess was , maybe she called me on phone and i somehow picked up mistakely (phone was in pocket) i took my phone out and checked call history , it was empty .

Days after same happened but i was in bed that time , now i heared a woman voice calling me, not familiar ...  it was whispering over and over , i got disturbed and covered my ears , folded it like a pizza roll lmao, and putted my hands on them With so big pressure it started to hurt , but i heared something scream in agony , woman voice screaming on such high pitch that it scared me and I spontaneously bursted into tears , i felt as if that voice was coming somewhere from near me , i jumped out of bed , and hit the light switch , rushed to my moms room asking did you hear that ... nobody heared a thing .

After that callings continued , wouldnt let me sleep , sometimes it happened with others around but mostly it was when i was alone . Then it got worse , i saw figures in my room , first day i saw something running infront of my room fast , so fast that i only saw a messy silhouette, days after i saw the silhouette of a man trying to leave my room , but as soon as i caught glimpse of it he returned into the dark , and honestly the scariest one was the silhouette i saw over my dad , he was standing infront of his bed , pointing his finger at him .

After that i saw nothing , but last time i felt something was a touch , something grabbed my leg ? I dont know , i felt it , it touched my leg and pulled me down a bit , it scared me and ever since then i started praying , soon after it stopped but . First month when i had started praying , i used to see a dream , every day the same dream , me standing in the white room in white idc hospital clothes or whatever theyre called , infront of a big drawing, whiCh looked like a hell , fire and figures in fire , talking to me , telling me to join them , i only said “no i belong to god” i dont know why , it came out from my mouth instinctively, and then room was turning blood stained , so did my clothes .

Now theyre gone but i want to know what they meant , after that i became like really interested in spirits and hauntings and started examining and exploring local places that are thought to be haunted , in that time i had one more weird dream , me laying in bed , i heared a voice , a mans voice telling me to quit what i did and give up on it , i asked him why , i looked at him and he pretended to be god , and told me that he asked so because i was disrupting him , i said how ... he didnt answer he just replied quit what youre doing , its not gods will , deep down i knew what he was , i knew he wasnt what he claimed to be.

He showed me something . Like i saw me and my friends coming back from my other friends house (we always followed her to her house , she was afraid to go alone) on the way back we had to go pat church ,when we were next to church Behind the wall i saw a silhouette of deceasedish , i got scared , then it was like a jumpscare of this deceaseds face covering my eyesight and bam im in the valley, grass everywhere , i look up and say : i wont stop . And wake up.

Guess what happened the next day , i followed her to house with my friends same ones i saw in dream , and on the way back i saw something lurking behind the wall. I instantly got scared and went in church , it was unusual , i was pale , but in church my head started hurting like hell so we left .... any ideas?

[edited to add paragraph breaks - Jenett]

[Castus]

I was young , maybe 11-12 when it first started , i was walking home from school (school wasnt so far so i startes going alone like from 4th grade)  i heared my mum calling my name when i was on the home street i was maybe 50 meters away from home , so i thought my mom was in the street , calling me , i looked around , street was empty ... so my second guess was , maybe she called me on phone and i somehow picked up mistakely (phone was in pocket) i took my phone out and checked call history , it was empty .
Days after same happened but i was in bed that time , now i heared a woman voice calling me, not familiar ...  it was whispering over and over , i got disturbed and covered my ears , folded it like a pizza roll lmao, and putted my hands on them With so big pressure it started to hurt , but i heared something scream in agony , woman voice screaming on such high pitch that it scared me and I spontaneously bursted into tears , i felt as if that voice was coming somewhere from near me , i jumped out of bed , and hit the light switch , rushed to my moms room asking did you hear that ... nobody heared a thing . After that callings continued , wouldnt let me sleep , sometimes it happened with others around but mostly it was when i was alone . Then it got worse , i saw figures in my room , first day i saw something running infront of my room fast , so fast that i only saw a messy silhouette, days after i saw the silhouette of a man trying to leave my room , but as soon as i caught glimpse of it he returned into the dark , and honestly the scariest one was the silhouette i saw over my dad , he was standing infront of his bed , pointing his finger at him . After that i saw nothing , but last time i felt something was a touch , something grabbed my leg ? I dont know , i felt it , it touched my leg and pulled me down a bit , it scared me and ever since then i started praying , soon after it stopped but . First month when i had started praying , i used to see a dream , every day the same dream , me standing in the white room in white idc hospital clothes or whatever theyre called , infront of a big drawing, whiCh looked like a hell , fire and figures in fire , talking to me , telling me to join them , i only said “no i belong to god” i dont know why , it came out from my mouth instinctively, and then room was turning blood stained , so did my clothes . Now theyre gone but i want to know what they meant , after that i became like really interested in spirits and hauntings and started examining and exploring local places that are thought to be haunted , in that time i had one more weird dream , me laying in bed , i heared a voice , a mans voice telling me to quit what i did and give up on it , i asked him why , i looked at him and he pretended to be god , and told me that he asked so because i was disrupting him , i said how ... he didnt answer he just replied quit what youre doing , its not gods will , deep down i knew what he was , i knew he wasnt what he claimed to be. He showed me something . Like i saw me and my friends coming back from my other friends house (we always followed her to her house , she was afraid to go alone) on the way back we had to go pat church ,when we were next to church Behind the wall i saw a silhouette of deceasedish , i got scared , then it was like a jumpscare of this deceaseds face covering my eyesight and bam im in the valley, grass everywhere , i look up and say : i wont stop . And wake up.
Guess what happened the next day , i followed her to house with my friends same ones i saw in dream , and on the way back i saw something lurking behind the wall. I instantly got scared and went in church , it was unusual , i was pale , but in church my head started hurting like hell so we left .... any ideas?

You might want to check in with a qualified psychiatrist/psychotherapist just to make sure everything is ticking on nicely.

[Rodiel]

You might want to check in with a qualified psychiatrist/psychotherapist just to make sure everything is ticking on nicely.

heared that alot but im fine , i mean my mental health is in normal condition lmao . i'm currently studying psychology and life's going pretty well no psychological problems at all .

[Jenett]

Hi there -

First, I edited your post to add paragraph breaks, because a long block of text is really hard to read. There's a bit more about this at the end of this post.

Now theyre gone but i want to know what they meant ,

So, you said you were around 11 or 12 when some of this happened - I'm not clear how long ago that was for you.

Some people do experience things like you describe around the time of puberty (so mostly ages 10-14ish, depending on a lot of factors) and those are also times in many places where there's a lot of other kinds of transition in someone's life.

School structure and kind of work changes, people may start having more responsibility at home for chores or younger siblings, become more aware of things in the larger world around them. (And of course, sometimes there are specific things going in a particular person's life, like changes in the family or traumatic events, or mostly happy but also stressful events like moving to a new place or having new family members.)

All of which can trigger a greater awareness of psychic events or energies - or get your brain trying to make patterns out of things that aren't actually going on. It can be really hard to tell without more information and investigation what's happening.

Guess what happened the next day , i followed her to house with my friends same ones i saw in dream , and on the way back i saw something lurking behind the wall. I instantly got scared and went in church , it was unusual , i was pale , but in church my head started hurting like hell so we left .... any ideas?

So, with your later experiences, you have choices here.

I agree with Castus that one thing is to check on any physical or mental health issues that might be at play with a qualified medical professional. There are mental health issues that can come with hearing voices, or unexpected sensory experiences.

One good way to look at this is to see if it's interfering with your ability to have a good life.

If you are able to keep up with school or work, manage your household stuff, take care of yourself (sleep, food, bathing, a mix of different things you're doing with your time), and have friends or other people you can do stuff with, then that's a lot less of a concern than if the voices you're hearing or the other experiences you're having are messing with your ability to do all of that or causing you to be obsessive about something. (And of course, if what you're hearing is encouraging you to do things that hurt you or other people, that's time to get professional help.)

Beyond that, though, many people do believe there are beings out there with all sorts of different ideas about how to interact with people. Most are generally not going to hurt you, but some are tricksters, and may try to mess with you because they think that's fun.

If you're having experiences that upset or scare you, one thing to do is to stop seeking out stuff that's in that realm. Don't poke stuff that might snap back, you know?

Another good practice if you're having psychic experiences of any kind, or energetic experiences you're not sure about is to build a regular practice of psychic hygiene - centering, grounding, shielding, and personal energy management.

I have several articles in the Core Skills section of my website. Most of the site focuses on religious witchcraft, but these skills can be applied in many different religious traditions in various forms. (And a regular practice of prayer and self-reflection are commonly considered to be protective and helpful in many religious traditions.)

Then, if you continue to have experiences with outside entities, the best advice I have is that just because something doesn't have a body doesn't mean that it knows more than we do. It certainly doesn't mean it has our best interests at heart. It's always appropriate to take a pause, think about the thing, and to have boundaries. That's a much larger conversation, so I'm not going to get into it here, but there are techniques and approaches to do this with non-physical beings, just like with physical ones.

[edited to add paragraph breaks - Jenett]

You may have noticed that our rules include several guidelines to help everyone be able to read and respond to posts more easily, specifically rule 3 in the DO section.

We have a lot of members for whom English is not their main language, and people who have dyslexia, or other reasons that reading is challenging. Not using capitals to begin sentences or standard punctuation, or using a lot of netspeak make things a lot harder for many people.

I'm guessing from your country flag that English isn't your first language either, but whatever you can do to use standard punctuation and capitalisation, break your writing into 3-5 line paragraphs with a blank line between them, and read over what you've written in order to make sure it's clear will help everyone out. Thanks!