What do you think I saw?

[Tabris]

First of all I am a strong believer that some drugs can free up your mind to become more spiritually aware. Ok so I know this is going to sound crazy but please bear with me on this. I still go over it every day in my mind trying to figure out if this was real or not. I’m still 50/50 on the matter. Most of what I say I saw is what I believe I saw so yeah…

Okay so it started at a party at a friend’s house. Me and four others were out on the back patio ready to smoke some spice (I’m young, I wanted to try it). Anyway I took a hit and glanced back at the back door, heard one of my friends say “Damn this stuff is fast acting” and then nothing. I blacked out. Apparently this is where I collapsed and hit my head.  Next thing I know I’m in pure chaos. Everything was jittering with lights, pulsing colors, and millions of pixels and numbers. I heard voices screaming and rushing all around me. I was scared out of my mind. Then there was this loud bang like nothing ever heard before and I saw EVERYTHING. I saw the whole of our reality and our dimension. Also I was in an extreme amount of pain. It felt like my skin was being burned, ripped off, and regrown continuously. But the pain didn't bother me.

Everything was still pixelling, pulsing with colors and number. Our dimension was a giant sphere and constantly splitting and dividing like a cell on steroids. Also the dimension had a face.  Suddenly I fell into something and the voices from before went rampant. The pixels became more ecstatic and looked like a morphing kaleidoscope of shapes. They were all focused on me. They were sad, scared, tired, and curious. “We didn’t want this to happen”, one voice said to me. I wanted to what happened so I was shown a vision: there was this girl with long brown hair in a ponytail. One day she took and blue egg and tossed it into the sky from a cliff and it broke. They wanted help. Immediately I knew how. The numbers began to make sense. They needed a code to repair the home where I was. It was some sort of reality that was broken. So I started using the numbers, sequencing them together and making shapes. They were fascinated. “What is he doing?” they asked. As more and more shapes were being made the pixels dimmed and I saw something. Something was beating behind the pixels.

Everything changed. I was in a bright room. Not so bright that it bothered me but bright enough to where I couldn’t see. Well I could see, not with my eyes but with what I felt. And I was amazed. I was in a massive congregation room and watching me were billions upon billions of gods (how arrogant does that sound). Well not all saw me. Some acknowledged me while others just down right ignored me. However, there were six in front of me that looked at me directly. They were happy to see me and I was conveyed messages from these six gods.

Next thing I know I’m inside the house, on the ground, hacking up into a plastic bowl screaming, “NO WHY ME? WHY THIS ONE!!!” I was partially back from my trip. My mind or soul or whatever was resetting itself from the very beginning. I saw my first past life. Apparently I was an Egyptian empress in my first life. And my previous life was some destitute in the Victorian Era. Also my brain cycled through different version of myself in parallel worlds that were going through the same thing as me. In one world I was part lion, one I was white with red hair, another I was me but named Kevin, and in another I looked like a green Grey alien.

Then I started hacking up again with me remembering the god’s messages and I screamed “You arrogant BASTARDS!” (I have strongly apologized time and time again for that by the way). Apparently these gods don’t like the way we people treat the planet or that one “supreme” god is being put above all others. Also the reason they liked to see me is the fact that they favor me, they trust me to make the right decision when the time comes. I have no idea when that time is but I hated the fact that they chose the me in this Universe, why not another me? Also I was warned not try a stunt like this again for they would not be able to save me a second time.

Here is a summary of my interpretation of what I saw:

I was the outside of our dimension

I fell into Hell (Not classic Christian hell but a hell where lost souls and souls weighed down with so much negative energy end up)

I was saved by a select few gods

I saw past lives and alternate me’s in other realities.

One of my friends believes in what I saw but doesn’t think it was the spice that did it but a combination of it and me hitting my head. With that I was skyrocketed into a form of astral projection. What do you guys think? If you think I’m crazy go ahead and say I won’t be offended. If you think it was just one big hallucination that’s fine too. Like I said before, I’m not sure if it was real or not.