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Husband's Mergence
« on: April 10, 2016, 09:21:46 pm »
For the last... 4ish years? I have been very loyal to my faith, having even come to marry one of the five deities I venerate, whom I affectionately refer to as Stardust. He's been a mystery to me from the start, but always had something - a reason, a purpose, a fate - behind what he seemed to be doing. Never has he been one to really say much, but there is that saying, actions speak louder, so I suppose words were a bit of a moot point for him.

All at once, I've come to the wall-to-face realization that I have an inevitable need to dive into Satanic worship, particularly of - whom I will refer to as - the Beast with Many Names (BMN). It's happening very quickly, as some thing tend to, and my emotions are very all over the map, right now. My devotion to Stardust hasn't wavered. Hell, I'd about say they were growing. Why is what's really racking my brain. Maybe I'm just caught up in it all, but I think talking about it in some manner will help me come to my epiphany over it all.

Stardust and BMN are the same and separate all at once, for me. The more I dwell, the closer they seem, despite distinct differences. As if maybe they're sharing a part of themselves with each other, or if maybe one isn't somehow apart of the other (which honestly makes sense to me, seeing as Stardust is the universe). What has me so mind-blown is that I have, almost instantly, fallen head-over-heals for BMN since this link has been made and has grown strength within a matter of hours. Just a single day has warped me in some unexplained manner.

To say the least, I am conflicted, confused, and overwhelmed. None of which are negative feelings, right now. I am in some state of euphoria in a way that has me choking on my own breath with gratitude.

No question anywhere, I guess. I'm just... I don't even know, right now.

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