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Author Topic: Bipolar disorder?  (Read 879 times)

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Bipolar disorder?
« on: September 15, 2017, 02:43:31 am »
Just wondering how many people are on here with bipolar disorder.  I have bipolar I disorder, and I have a form of it that is considered severe.  I was just wondering if anyone has found the disease affects how they practice. 
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Re: Bipolar disorder?
« Reply #1 on: September 15, 2017, 12:31:21 pm »
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Re: Bipolar disorder?
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Re: Bipolar disorder?
« Reply #3 on: September 15, 2017, 02:16:10 pm »
Just wondering how many people are on here with bipolar disorder.  I have bipolar I disorder, and I have a form of it that is considered severe.  I was just wondering if anyone has found the disease affects how they practice.

Hi, Moonlightsonata -

Not one of the things I deal with, but if you haven't already explored some of the other threads in this folder, there's some there, in case no one replies here directly.

(One of the quirky things about asking about specific conditions - as I'm sure you know - is that sometimes people are more up for talking about than others, or people who have that condition and might otherwise post may not be reading here regularly right now. Please don't take lack of reply for lack of interest.)

Are you open to comments from people dealing with other mental health issues, or would that not be as helpful to you?
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Re: Bipolar disorder?
« Reply #4 on: September 15, 2017, 04:09:27 pm »
Are you open to comments from people dealing with other mental health issues, or would that not be as helpful to you?

Absolutely.  :)  I just wondered about bipolar in particular because of the issues with dealing with mania/mixed phase symptoms and energy work. 
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Re: Bipolar disorder?
« Reply #5 on: September 15, 2017, 09:30:02 pm »
**Slight trigger warning: suicide and self harm**

 I was diagnosed bipolar and depressed when I was 15 (roughly 10 years ago) and got put on an overnight suicide watch at the local ER. At the time my mom was also diagnosed bipolar (she thinks it was really her unknown-at-the-time Celiac, but I'm not sure. She's still got the occasional swings) so they tacked it on with my depression and prescribed me Prozac and Lamictal.

Fast forward eight years to seeing a new psychiatrist (after trying several different antidepressants and other psychs), and she says I don't have it so we wean me off the Lamictal. Two years after that (April-ish of this year) I've moved to a new state and seeing yet another new therapist, and she says it's Borderline Personality Disorder. Now I already knew about BPD because I'd come across something about it last fall, and it made complete and total sense to everything in my life.

Fiance of course refuses to believe it, thinks I went in there reciting the BPD symptoms just so I could get the diagnosis. Well, I went in telling her about the symptoms I've had for more than a decade of my life. Even though I wasn't diagnosed anything until I was 15, looking back I see the symptoms of my BPD starting around the time I was 11 or so.

For those of you who don't know, BPD is characterized by frantic feelings of abandonment, insanely intense mood swings (not just mania/depression like bipolar, I literally feel every emotion to the extreme), unstable relationships of all flavors, not just romantic, ridiculous amounts of impulsivity, and severe issues with self-image (including not having any sense of identity).

There's other stuff, like suicidal thoughts and cutting/other forms of self harm, but the ones I mentioned are the ones I deal with the most right now. Oh! And black/white thinking. Like, there's no middle ground for me. Everything is love/hate, good/evil. I don't know what grey areas are.
Absolutely.  :)  I just wondered about bipolar in particular because of the issues with dealing with mania/mixed phase symptoms and energy work.
**Slight trigger warning: suicide and self harm**

 I was diagnosed bipolar and depressed when I was 15 (roughly 10 years ago) and got put on an overnight suicide watch at the local ER. At the time my mom was also diagnosed bipolar (she thinks it was really her unknown-at-the-time Celiac, but I'm not sure. She's still got the occasional swings) so they tacked it on with my depression and prescribed me Prozac and Lamictal.

Fast forward eight years to seeing a new psychiatrist (after trying several different antidepressants and other psychs), and she says I don't have it so we wean me off the Lamictal. Two years after that (April-ish of this year) I've moved to a new state and seeing yet another new therapist, and she says it's Borderline Personality Disorder. Now I already knew about BPD because I'd come across something about it last fall, and it made complete and total sense to everything in my life.

Fiance of course refuses to believe it, thinks I went in there reciting the BPD symptoms just so I could get the diagnosis. Well, I went in telling her about the symptoms I've had for more than a decade of my life. Even though I wasn't diagnosed anything until I was 15, looking back I see the symptoms of my BPD starting around the time I was 11 or so.

For those of you who don't know, BPD is characterized by frantic feelings of abandonment, insanely intense mood swings (not just mania/depression like bipolar, I literally feel every emotion to the extreme), unstable relationships of all flavors, not just romantic, ridiculous amounts of impulsivity, and severe issues with self-image (including not having any sense of identity).

There's other stuff, like suicidal thoughts and cutting/other forms of self harm, but the ones I mentioned are the ones I deal with the most right now. Oh! And black/white thinking. Like, there's no middle ground for me. Everything is love/hate, good/evil. I don't know what grey areas are.

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Re: Bipolar disorder?
« Reply #6 on: September 17, 2017, 03:48:35 am »
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Well, I went in telling her about the symptoms I've had for more than a decade of my life. Even though I wasn't diagnosed anything until I was 15, looking back I see the symptoms of my BPD starting around the time I was 11 or so.

For those of you who don't know, BPD is characterized by frantic feelings of abandonment, insanely intense mood swings (not just mania/depression like bipolar, I literally feel every emotion to the extreme), unstable relationships of all flavors, not just romantic, ridiculous amounts of impulsivity, and severe issues with self-image (including not having any sense of identity).

I'm familiar with BPD.  I've almost got tagged with it a few times.  After my last suicide attempt and month long hospital stay I had to undergo an eight hour psychiatric evaluation and all he diagnosed me with was bipolar disorder.  He said I had borderline "traits" but he said that about several other things as well and I think he started getting less accurate the more vague he got.  That's a hard one to deal with.  I feel emotions intently too but not as much as someone with BPD.  Hopefully they've been able to do some things to help you. 
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Re: Bipolar disorder?
« Reply #7 on: September 17, 2017, 07:03:02 am »
***slight trigger warning:  mention of suicide attempt***



I'm familiar with BPD.  I've almost got tagged with it a few times.  After my last suicide attempt and month long hospital stay I had to undergo an eight hour psychiatric evaluation and all he diagnosed me with was bipolar disorder.  He said I had borderline "traits" but he said that about several other things as well and I think he started getting less accurate the more vague he got.  That's a hard one to deal with.  I feel emotions intently too but not as much as someone with BPD.  Hopefully they've been able to do some things to help you.
The therapist that diagnosed me has been great , but lack of health insurance means I haven't seen her since before my Cayman islands trip in May. Hopefully once Obamacare opens back up in November I'll be able to get back in to see her, but until then I'll be on my own.


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