Half shroud hangs in place.
Fair by face but not by nature;
Slow steps quickening in pace
To test the snares of jubilation.
What pitfalls lie beneath the seams
Of arid land and steaming marsh,
And will I see them through the dreams
Of teeth and breath and need, all twisting?
When flirting with the small ones Green,
I do not trust the things I’ve seen.
When aching draws me closer still
To strands that weave across the Void,
Decisions made outside free will,
All fall away – Forgotten. Lost.
I will remember declarations
Made with an unfaltering voice.
I will plunge in without regret
To depths made open through my choice.
The Sow stands proud, face to the Sun,
And eats Her Children, One by One.
By veggiewolf Baby, baby it looks like it’s gonna hail
Baby, baby it looks like it’s gonna hail
You better come inside
Let me teach you how to jive and wail. (1-4)*
Recently, I did an inventory of how I honor my gods, and examining that aspect of my religious practice led me to start examining how I honor myself. After all, I’m both a FlameKeeper and a Kemetic and self-care and self-confidence are valuable commodities in my line of religion.
Most of you know that I’ve recently started two (count ‘em, TWO!) new jobs after being pretty much out of work for six months. One of these is a corporate-type day job that runs five days a week during “normal business hours”, and the other is a job teaching swimming lessons part-time at the local Y. The two could not be more different from one another: at my corporate job I wear clothes that are business casual and spend a lot of time in a chair in front of a computer, and at my other job I wear my bathing suit and move around continually for 2-4 hours.
Between the two jobs, I feel like I’m getting a well-rounded experience. I’m getting a mental workout five days …read more
By veggiewolf I never expected to beg a plant to spare the life of someone I loved. I also never expected that it would answer me.
In 2012, someone I care about very deeply (I’ll call them “Z”) found themselves in a pit of despair, likely related to both clinical depression and an incredible mountain of past and current family problems. Z couldn’t find a way out and, at the time, had no “official” support network – no medications, no psychotherapy, and almost no one to speak to aside from me and one other friend. They were desperately looking for some way to jump-start getting better that could be done on their own terms…and they found it in an infamous plant from Gabon. I’m talking, of course, about Tabernanthe iboga.
Tabernanthe iboga is native to western Central Africa and has known psychedelic properties. Chewing the bark of the root can cause hallucinations and visions, and it is used in religious ceremonies by practitioners of Bwiti in Gabon, Cameroon, and the Republic of the Congo (sometimes called Congo-Brazzaville). Initiates to Bwiti take large doses of T. iboga, but it is more often taken in smaller doses for rituals …read more
By veggiewolf I am not one to sit quietly and wait for things to happen.
This shouldn’t be a surprise to you, dear reader – you’ve seen my ranting and raving and calls for action rather than stagnation over the years. You (should) know how I get when something gets under my skin and, lately, everything’s been getting under and rubbing me raw. Some of this is because life is overwhelming and I’ve just not had the luxury to sit down and objectively examine anything…but some of it is because it’s easier
for me to get angry and fly off the handle than to allow myself to just BE sad.
I happily feed off anger; it warms me and propels me to keep going and so I embrace it to function. It’s a coping mechanism (not a healthy one) and my excuses about not having time to embrace the sad are beginning to wear thin even to me. As I’ve said, I hate waiting for things to happen and so I’m going to have to allow myself the time to mourn all of the things I’ve lost since November of last year, even though I’m terrified to do it.
It’s easier to fall apart once …read more
I know they’re linked with Druidry and have some Wiccan connections, but what’s the origin of this idea? Is there evidence for this being a Celtic belief, or is it purely a modern invention? If it is ancient, is the number nine significant, or simply the number of sacred trees we know of? Or is the reverse true: we know the number but not the trees?
By veggiewolf My brothers’ best friend died on April 16, 2014, two days before Good Friday. He was 45.
The funeral was April 22nd, and I attended in support of my siblings, both of whom were very close to him, and very shaken. Although their friend (I’ll call him “S”) was ill for quite some time, his outlook on life gave the people who were closest to him hope that he would go on for many years to come. My middle brother was hit particularly hard – S was his best friend for over 15 years.
The service was one of those non-threatening, no-particular-denomination, Christian blancmange public religious rites; it felt comforting, and had moments of lightness mixed in with quotes from great men and a place for people to “say a few words” if they “felt so moved”. No one did feel “so moved”, and I’ve been to Quaker meetings where more was said by those attending…but that’s not the point, really. The point is that this particular public rite struck me as being designed for the people left behind rather than for S…and specifically designed to be as non-offensive as possible.
To me, this completely misses the mark.
Now, …read more
I’ve considered and dabbled with using cosmetics on my body for spells. But is it a good way to get the point across, plus I found some of the makeup and where I put it uncomfortable so any suggestion on special products? I’ve considered temporarily dying my hair, I’ve tried cheap glitter, any other ideas?
So I’ve been wanting to get into learning about runes for a while now. I don’t know where to start, however. Would anyone be able to direct me to books/online resources that are reliable for learning about runes and the mythology behind them?
Also, I have a question for those who are experienced with runes: What are your thoughts on this so called ‘blank rune’? I have heard about it, and I have also heard about it being a controversial subject. I’ve found articles about it being a modern concept and having no evidence that it was used in any time previously, and I became curious about it.
I was out looking at Tarot cards the other day, because I’ve been looking for a deck for a while and can’t seem to find one. I then saw the Shadowscapes deck and I felt it resonate really strongly with me.
Unfortunately since I was just looking I didn’t think to bring enough money to buy it.
I’ve taken that as a chance to ask about it here.
Do any of you have the deck? If so, do you use it often? Are there any other decks you prefer or would recommend? And likes and dislikes are always helpful too!