I used to hear voices , feel touches , see stuff

I was young , maybe 11-12 when it first started , i was walking home from school (school wasnt so far so i startes going alone like from 4th grade)  i heared my mum calling my name when i was on the home street i was maybe 50 meters away from home , so i thought my mom was in the street , calling me , i looked around , street was empty … so my second guess was , maybe she called me on phone and i somehow picked up mistakely (phone was in pocket) i took my phone out and checked call history , it was empty .
Days after same happened but i was in bed that time , now i heared a woman voice calling me, not familiar …  it was whispering over and over , i got disturbed and covered my ears , folded it like a pizza roll lmao, and putted my hands on them With so big pressure it started to hurt , but i heared something scream in agony , woman voice screaming on such high pitch that it scared me and I spontaneously bursted into tears , i felt as if that voice was coming somewhere from near me , i jumped out of bed , and hit the light switch , rushed to my moms room asking did you hear that … nobody heared a thing . After that callings continued , wouldnt let me sleep , sometimes it happened with others around but mostly it was when i was alone . Then it got worse , i saw figures in my room , first day i saw something running infront of my room fast , so fast that i only saw a messy silhouette, days after i saw the silhouette of a man trying to leave my room , but as soon as i caught glimpse of it he returned into the dark , and honestly the scariest one was the silhouette i saw over my dad , he was standing infront of his bed , pointing his finger at him . After that i saw nothing , but last time i felt something was a touch , something grabbed my leg ? I dont know , i felt it , it touched my leg and pulled me down a bit , it scared me and ever since then i started praying , soon after it stopped but . First month when i had started praying , i used to see a dream , every day the same dream , me standing in the white room in white idc hospital clothes or whatever theyre called , infront of a big drawing, whiCh looked like a hell , fire and figures in fire , talking to me , telling me to join them , i only said “no i belong to god” i dont know why , it came out from my mouth instinctively, and then room was turning blood stained , so did my clothes . Now theyre gone but i want to know what they meant , after that i became like really interested in spirits and hauntings and started examining and exploring local places that are thought to be haunted , in that time i had one more weird dream , me laying in bed , i heared a voice , a mans voice telling me to quit what i did and give up on it , i asked him why , i looked at him and he pretended to be god , and told me that he asked so because i was disrupting him , i said how … he didnt answer he just replied quit what youre doing , its not gods will , deep down i knew what he was , i knew he wasnt what he claimed to be. He showed me something . Like i saw me and my friends coming back from my other friends house (we always followed her to her house , she was afraid to go alone) on the way back we had to go pat church ,when we were next to church Behind the wall i saw a silhouette of deceasedish , i got scared , then it was like a jumpscare of this deceaseds face covering my eyesight and bam im in the valley, grass everywhere , i look up and say : i wont stop . And wake up.
Guess what happened the next day , i followed her to house with my friends same ones i saw in dream , and on the way back i saw something lurking behind the wall. I instantly got scared and went in church , it was unusual , i was pale , but in church my head started hurting like hell so we left …. any ideas?

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ADMIN: Structural Reorganization of Forums

Hi, Everyone,

TC has a great many forums/subforums. At one time, we had enough site traffic, not just reading/lurking but posting, that this was desirable, and even necessary to keep any given area from becoming overwhelming.

Like most ‘old-fashioned’ means of online connection and communication in these days of increasing reliance on social media, TC is less busy than it once was, and the large number of distinct forums merely serves to make the board look quieter than it is, and confuse newer members trying to figure out where to post a thread.

So TC staff have been – starting while Randall was still host, and continuing under my leadership – discussing how best to reduce the number of forums. This is still an ongoing project; we’re nowhere near finished making all the many decisions, large and small, involved in this. We have, though, reached a point at which we can begin implementing some of the changes.

Implementation will occur a bit at a time, as we’re ready to do some particular piece of if; I’m hoping to be able to complete the project before the end of 2020 (well before, if all goes smoothly, but I don’t expect it to be done in less than 6 months even in the best case scenario). You should see the first ones before the end of this month (or might not see them, if you’re not looking closely).

So, as the cliche goes: please forgive the sawdust, this is a Work in Progress.

Host, The Cauldron

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Value of death

Firstly I wanted to add a couple of disclaimers – Obviously this is talking about death but also touching on ritual death/ sacrifice and the value of human life ( all I would imagine can be TRIGGERS ) so please be warned.

I’ve placed this here as it didn’t quite seem right for history, gods/goddesses or philosophy.

So I’ve recently come across instances which have made me think about the difference of how we value human death now compared to in the past. These include a documentary I watched about burials at Stonehenge and human sacrifice in the past ( discussing how a sacrifice might have been a contract so to speak with the gods – in exchange for the protection of grain ready for the coming year. ) and something that came up in chatting with a friend about how in Wicca the goddess appears so important as a bringer of life but the god comes across as less so. Now it wasn’t mentioned in this chat but I can see how it could appear that the god’s main role is to die and so he almost appears as a ‘star trek red coat’ so to speak and that made me want to start this topic.

Basically I’m thinking that our ancestors views of death ( given both it’s significance to their survival, the limited no of people in a group or settlement and the close bonds they must have had to build up ) must have been much rawer and stronger than what we as a culture would have now.
There must have been a certainty that, at times some had to die for others to survive but also a deep knowledge that each life was precious and the death was a major thing not to be taken lightly. So, for instance, the idea of the god in Wicca dying would have had some reflection on the value the death of an individual should have ( thus the death of a god is a vastly significant thing ). There are the gifts gods, like Odin, have brought back by reaching through deaths door.

I know this is all supposition and I’m not very knowledgeable in history or religious thought and so I was wondering what your thoughts on this subject are ( bearing in mind this is still an idea in its basic form )?

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Planets as deities?

So, for a while now, I’ve had this inclination to view the planets of our solar system as embodiments of the deities after whom they are named.
For example; seeing Mars (the planet) as an embodiment of Mars (the Roman god of war).

I know that might seem silly or unconventional, but it’s just a strange thought I’ve not been able to shake.

Anybody else have similar associations?

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Barrier in person’s aura

What is your opinion on the claims in this article? I paraphrase them here:

People practice a form of shielding where they visualize a protective layer in one’s aura. The article author claims that the extra, unnatural layer forces the lower auric levels down and makes them stagnant.

The auric layers outside the shield can’t connect the lower layers through the shield, which makes them structurally unstable.
The outer, higher aura layers are associated with spiritual realms and consciousness, so the hard shield acts as an obstacle for higher energies and spiritual connections.

The author recommends against doing this type of shielding regularly.

I would especially like to hear from members who can perceive auras, if they have noticed anything like this.

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Hail and well met!

I’m very bad at this. I haven’t used a forum since I was eleven or twelve. Here goes.

I’m Ian. I’m a twenty-something university student pursuing a doctorate in history. I’ve been interested in paganism and the occult more broadly since I was a wee lad. I only recently started to seriously explore that interest. I was raised Methodist, but I never really felt spiritually at home in the church, although I still think of it fondly. I flirted with various religions ranging from Eastern Orthodoxy and Catholicism to Judaism before I finally “returned” to paganism. I feel quite at home here.

I’m of predominantly Irish and Scottish ancestry with some Cornish and Welsh scattered about, and I grew up very immersed in that Celtic “world” so to speak– went to local Gaelic game events with my parents, did Irish stepdance for all of about two weeks, etc. My username actually comes from a Scottish legend that I was deeply obsessed with as a child, The Ballad of Tam Lin. I’ve always loved the folklore of Britain and Ireland dearly and this informs much of my beliefs. Right now, I would describe myself as a traditional witch (warlock? wizard? Witch is unisex, isn’t it?) with a reverence for the fairies. I have a particular attachment to the Queen of Elphame in all of Her many guises. I’m very new to actually practicing paganism and I thought it would be good for me to meet like-minded individuals, especially those who have been on this path much longer than I have.

Outside of magick, I am an avid player of roleplaying games, both tabletop and video. I write here and there as well. I hope this isn’t too terribly long of an introduction. I look forward to meeting you all.

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55 Cancri

I was thinking about  55 Cancri, the so-called Diamond Planet https://www.space.com/18011-super-earth-planet-diamond-world.html, and while I don’t claim to be an expert on the subject, I don’t see the physics working from what I know about planet formation; and the discrepancy between the chemistry of the planet and that of the supposedly parent star further suggests that there is something very wrong with this picture.

Could it be more likely that the planet is actually the burned out core of a dead stellar companion?
And since the parameters and results of the Triple-alpha process of Nucleosynthesis in a Helium-burning star is fairly well understood, this hypothesis should be relatively easy to test

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Times of resting

I recently heard a remark from someone who doesn’t make New Year’s resolutions because she considers winter a season to rest, not to start new things. And that got me thinking.

Christianity and Judaism have sabbaths, but offhand I don’t know of any Pagan practices that set aside specific times for resting. Maybe that’s just because it isn’t discussed much; our culture (in North America at least) frowns on ‘laziness’ and even our personal time is supposed to be used for exercise or self-improvement.

Does anyone set aside specific times for resting in their practice? How often/how long are they?

And what counts as ‘resting’? There are some forms of Judaism where they don’t press light switches on the Sabbath, but I think that would be on the far end of the scale.

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