Author Topic: Having trouble (Read 1724 times)

DuaBastet · « **on:** December 05, 2014, 06:02:07 pm »

So today I started the Kemetic pantheon. I think Bastet has come back into my life after a period of not being together (it's a long story but here it is)

I met a diviner on tumblr a few months ago who helped me communicate with bastet because I can't divine myself. And she worked with Kemetic deities. things were going pretty great between me and bast. then lately I started getting norse dreams and shit came crashing down. I got a reading saying a deity was coming in that wouldn't take no for an answer and was pushing bast out of my life. bast couldn't reach out to me. I was scared of of my wits and admittedly curious about who the heck this deity was. the reading she gave me said bast wouldn't help me because I secretly didn't want this deity gone and her patron thoth was side eyeing me. I was scared out of my wits and I got a couple of panic attacks actually
I felt physically ill for days
I was THAT scared
after a few more readings I realized there was nothing I could do. I cut ties with bast and went to see what this deity wanted
heres the catch
THERE WAS NO DEITY
I never heard from this deity at all period. no signs or anything. and I also had a dream where sekhmet was able to get through to me a few months later after being blissfully unaware I put two and two together and I realized I got conned

So I'm having trouble trying to shake off being a heathen for a long time and I'm scared I can't do this. I think Kemeticism would be really good for me. The Gods care about me and want me around (thats how I feel) but I'm so used to being a heathen I keep wanting to go back to THAT because it's familiar territory. But in the end it makes me so unhappy.

does anyone have any advice?

SatAset · « **Reply #1 on:** December 05, 2014, 07:20:34 pm »

Quote from: DuaBastet;166820

The Gods care about me and want me around (thats how I feel) but I'm so used to being a heathen I keep wanting to go back to THAT because it's familiar territory. But in the end it makes me so unhappy.

does anyone have any advice?

I'd make an offering to Bast and invite Her back into your life. Not that She ever left...

Just FYI, for Kemetic deities, you normally eat the offering after wards.

You can honor deities from both Kemetic and Heathen pantheons. By Heathen, I'm assuming you mean Heathenry (Germanic/Anglo Saxon/Scandinavian etc. Paganism and their Gods/Goddesses). If being Heathen isn't making you happy, then why are you doing it?

Honor Them with offerings. Hospitality and good manners go a long way. You also may want to clean your house or at least clean your shrine area.

Hope that helps.