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Opening up, going deeper, and maybe using titles instead of naming names?

Okay, let’s see if I can pull some coherence out of this swirling mishmash of ideas and questions I have blowing about in my brain like leaves on a windy day.

First off, a little background info. I consider myself still pretty new to Paganism at just about two years of exploring and practicing. I came into it by way of ADF rather than via Wicca as seems to often be the case. I’m currently starting the OBOD bardic grade. ADF has been a good start, but it isn’t quite fitting me in terms of focusing on established IE pantheons.

It probably bears noting that I am something of what I could call a “fluid polytheist.” I’m not quite as hard as seeing all of the gods and goddesses as completely unique and separate, yet I’m not quite as soft as “all are facets of one or two.” If anything, I resonate with the Hindu model that there is the unknowable, incomprehensible level of divinity… from there some key figures emerge… and from there others emerge. They are, IMO, simultaneously distinct and yet part of something greater. When it gets down to it, I believe I will probably end up being something of a henotheist… honoring and working closely with two or three or four key deities while acknowledging and sometimes honoring others as appropriate. So I don’t quite click with hard polytheism but neither do I feel genuine doing the “God and Goddess” thing.

Part of my problem is I have a hard time choosing a pantheon or even a particular deity and saying, “I’m going to honor and develop a relationship with them because they’re neat” (or perhaps even “useful”). I do have ones I am drawn to and have brushes with. I have started to honor and make offerings to see what relationships may form. But in terms of exploring connections to other beings I have a hard time dedicating much to a being out of the blue. It seems a little like trying hard to cozy up to someone you just met by giving them presents and telling them how great they are and simply expecting a relationship will form. It doesn’t seem to create the space needed to see if there is a reciprocal interest there.

This issue often comes up for me on some of my grove’s high day rituals because there don’t seem to be many in the group that consistently draw from their personal relationships when putting together a ritual. This is probably because many of our few most active members, including myself, are still new and exploring. But, as an example, my local grove will be focusing on Brigid for Imbolc this weekend. I understand that this is pretty typical, but no one in this grove really works closely with Brigid. They’re mostly honoring her in ritual because, “That’s what one does at Imbolc.” Similarly, we honor Lugh and Lughnasadh because “his name is in the day” and partly because one person did a lot of research on Lugh, but there isn’t a closeness that really seems to motivate the choice. It all just feels very much like picking names out of a book. Now, I recognize that a ritual for a diverse group is not going to resonate with everyone each and every time. That just can’t be helped. But at the same time it feels very hollow to honor deities related to a certain day just because some book or website says those are the ones typically associated with that day.

The question this raises in myself whenever it feels like we’re just picking names out of a book is related to exploring and fostering my own connection to the gods and goddesses. It seems to me that what I need to do for myself is essentially, “sit down, pipe down, tune in, and see who shows up.” At the same time, I feel like I should at least attempt to direct my exploration to some degree. I personally do agree with the concept I have seen expressed in Hinduism that the divine will take names and faces that you personally can relate to… that you can even create a name and face and it will “don that costume you created.” But, at the same time I want to give beings the opportunity to be and express themselves.

So, I guess the first question to pull out of all of this is how to go about reaching out to the gods and goddesses with some sense of direction but without forcing an artificial focus on a pre-established pantheon?

The second part would be thoughts on addressing with titles or types rather than a specific name. For example, say I feel it would be good to connect with a deity related to healing. It might ultimately be Brigid, Eir, or some other. I’m playing with the idea of using a title such as “Great Healer” for now… at least until something shows up and I get to know them and how they wish to be known. It seems like that might be at least more focused than “to whom it may consern” but at the same time isn’t quite playing Pantheon Pokemon by tossing the ol’ Pokeball down and saying, “Brigid… I choose YOU!”

Of course, some of our historical deity names are actually titles rather than personal names.

Hopefully somewhere in there was some thoughts that made sense. I can try to refine anything if needed.

Basically, I want to deepen my connection to that which we identify with “gods and goddesses” beyond simple high day honoring, but feel like picking a pantheon from the “ADF-approved” list is not for me. I feel like, at least for myself, that is forcing me to reach out to the divine through an artifically-imposed lens of historical and academic concepts from long ago and far away rather than connecting in meaningful ways in the here and now with however those powers that be seek to express themselves to me.

Struggling With Reconciling Paganism and Christianity

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Lately I have been having some problems reconciling different religious traditions that I practice. I have been a practicing pagan of some stripe for over a decade, and I was not raised in a religious household in which we went to church regularly or anything, but in the past three years or so I have been going to church. I am even working on a graduate degree in Christian theology right now, which is an… interesting experience. Somehow I ended up really involved in the wider Church community.

I feel like my heart is in paganism, but church offers a lot that modern paganism just doesn’t. It’s about structure, tradition, community, and satisfying liturgy/ritual. I just feel secure in certain types of churches. For me, at least, paganism is isolating and alienating. It makes me feel different than the rest of society in a way that makes it difficult to relate to others. I’m in a big city, but pagan communities are pretty scarce, and the ones I have been able to find just like to bitch about Christianity and mainstream culture, and the negativity is just so draining. When it comes to ritual, I’m either lighting candles and incense by myself at home, or I’m in someone’s living room with the couches pushed back, holding hands with people I don’t know very well and dancing around in a circle feeling silly.

While I’m not completely on board theologically or in terms of Scripture, I love the drama of high church Christianity, with its processions, choral music, candles, sacred art, thuribles smoking with incense, and reverent gestures. There was a time when I was starting to reconcile myself to an Abrahamic monotheist theology and a greater appreciation of Scripture, but for whatever reason it didn’t stick. Maybe because I support feminism, queer rights, and sex-positivity. There are Christians who are into those kinds of causes too, but being pagan and having a worldview that accepts diversity when it comes to sex and gender, not to mention pretty much everything else, is a lot easier than trying to believe in a text that promotes patriarchy, violence, misogyny, xenophobia, homophobia, etc. It’s more complicated than just those issues, but they are the obvious ones.

Sometimes I think it would be a good idea just to devote myself more fully to the Church, and not bother with the pagan stuff anymore, which I have not been able to do fully. It would give me the structure I crave, which is easier to maintain as part of a community rather than just a solitary lighting candles in my room and honouring gods no one around me cares about, or they would think I’m crazy for worshiping. I would feel more in touch with society, and have a community of people who aren’t so angry and emotionally draining to be around, and not feel as disingenuous as I often feel now. I just don’t know if I can make it work, as my personal understanding of “God” is as a more feminine being, and eroticism plays a big part in my spirituality, and I don’t know if I can reconcile that with Christianity. There is something I genuinely love about the Roman Catholic and Anglo-Catholic faith, I just don’t know if I can stick to it exclusively, but if I don’t, I feel like I am not getting as much out of it as I could. I currently follow Anglican Catholicism, which is kind of a watered-down imitation of Roman Catholicism, since it’s more open to issues of gender and sexuality, but I wonder if I converted to the Roman Church I would take it more seriously and try to live according to its teachings. However, that doesn’t always seem like a good idea.

Thank you if you have read this all the way through. Let me know if you can sympathize or have any suggestions.

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What Does the Daily Worship of a Heathen Look Like?

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Hello everyone. I tried to search through the searchbar to see if anything similar came up, but I couldn’t find anything. Then again- I’ve never been the best with forum searches and I am new here, so please forgive me if I over looked something.

I’m extremely new to Heathenry. I considered myself a Wiccan for a short period of time and worked with the Runes and Norse deities, then someone in my Coven showed me Heathenism. I’ve never looked back on Wicca since. I realized it just wasn’t for me. Reading about Asatru and Heathenry clicked something inside of me that I never have felt before. I am Germanic heritage, so it’s particularly appealing to me.

My question is, what does Heathen or Asatru daily worship look like? Right now, I’m also Kemetic Orthodox, and I have been for years now. In KO, we have a daily Senut ritual where you tend shrine and give offerings to the Gods. It’s become quite the discipline for me.

I know Asatru has blots and sumbel, but I was just wondering if there was any rituals/prayers/offerings/etc done on a daily basis to honor the Gods, similar to what I mentioned above with Kemetism. What does your daily worship look like?

Thank you in advance for any help with this, and sorry for such a beginner question, lol. I’m reading through the Eddas right now and loving it. I’m also quite the history nerd, so I love the cultural and historical aspect of it all too.

Theology, Method, and Authors

I’ve noticed a particular trend in many modern pagan writings. It seems that the bulk of pagan authors are focused primarily on the methodology of spell work or creating grimoires that can be sold to others or utilizing particular practices or elements within the context thereof. However, it seems there are very few books discussing the spiritual philosophies connected thereto.

Frankly this has been a point of great disappointment for me many times. I buy or look into something not for a list of spells or rituals but for insights, for ideas that may not have occurred to me or new angles, not something that is focused on the methods and specific spells. Granted, these things do have a place, but after a certain point, unless one can provide a truly groundbreaking insight on method, it grows irritating when two thirds of a text are devoted to how to practice and not cosmology, ethics, metaphysics, and other such ideas.

You see, these the various pagan paths, no matter how closely connected to the great and sacred art of magick are religions and yet we seem to be lacking in theologians. There is a great deal of depth to these occult philosophies and yet it seems far less is said about these aspects than the working of spells. While these texts do help us assemble meaningful rites and spells, it does not always address the underlying philosophy of it all. These methods are intimately connected to these philosophies yet so little seems to be written about it by comparison.

This is troubling to me. Considering how vast and diverse the traditions are, you’d imagine that the pagan world would be swimming in theologians and spiritual philosophers. Yet, it seems that most focus on practice in their writings while saying little about metaphysics. The practice is important, but it is the philosophy of it that drives the practice and informs it. A guide to practice has it’s uses, but how can one truly understand or resonate with what they do if they do not know the concepts, the ideas, and ethics attached to it.

Magick may be a part of what so many of us do, but it is not the ultimate goal or purpose of pagan religions no matter how decentralized. It is through the discussion of these underlying theological notions that new realizations and concepts become known.

So i must ask, are there any real theologians out there? Are there any authors out there who write extensively on the philosophy of these spiritual paths? If not, what would it take for more of them to emerge?

Making First Contact (and New-Fangled Communication Methods)

texting photoSo, for those of you who have reached out to make contact with someone – about an event, because you’re looking for a group or a teacher or a mentor, any kind of one on one contact, what method would you use?

What methods would you think are reasonable? What kinds of stuff would you not be willing to share on a first contact? What kind of stuff do you think might be reasonable? What kind of stuff might you not share but you’d understand if someone asked?

(It depends on what you’re asking about – the amount of detail about you someone needs if you want info about a public event is a lot different than if you’re asking about substantial teaching – but feel free to talk about whatever parts of this interest you or is relevant to your own life.)

This question brought to you by the fact I got two text-to-email yesterday to the email address I use for group work stuff, saying, basically “I am a male solitary pagan in [town I live in], I’m interested. Please respond.’

My actual response was, roughly, asking “Can you email [address] with a name I can call you, a brief background on what you’ve done so far and what you’re interested in, and we can go from there?” But I’m trying to decide if my bafflement of someone doing this by text is the fact I mostly don’t text, or something else.

Problems with Ritual and Eclectic Practice

I’ve only just yesterday begun to admit that my practice is probably going to have to veer off into eclecticism if I want something that feels whole and fulfilling. It’s not something I’m comfortable with yet. I tried recon several years back and, as a solitary, it just didn’t work. I was learning about Asatru and found that it wasn’t right for me. I ended up in OBOD.

But, even though I love OBOD to bits, I have a few issues there, too. I don’t follow a Celtic path. My Gods are Norse. It’s very hard to make a spiritual practice fusing two things that don’t go together, so I’ve kept them–Norse Pagan and OBOD–separate.

So here’s the issue: I think I have to learn about Celtic Recon, just as I’ve learned about Norse Recon and I have to find somewhere in the middle to meet with ritual. I know I won’t combine, say a Norse Blot with Celtic gods, but what I’m looking for is a way of structuring a personal ritual practice to use as a framework for offerings and prayer and the like. Something that is original but can be used in ceremonies and celebrations. I already don’t bother with such things as Blot or Sumbel, because they feel ridiculous without other people. I don’t perform OBOD rituals because they feel empty without deities and have a Wiccan-derived feeling that doesn’t really work for me.

I can’t say for certain that I’ll end up following an eclectic path, but if I do, I need for there to be research done that satisfies my need to be non-offensive and reasonably accurate. I think perhaps if I can come up with a relatively generic ritual form, I can still keep both practices separate, but joined, through the commonality of ritual that is Celtic flavoured for one thing and Norse for another. That just made me cringe. I don’t know how comfortable I’ll be with that idea. But I should at least investigate the possibilities.

Can anyone recommend any good CR links or books for research? (I prefer to be at least recon-derived and non-offensive to deities and cultural ideals)

Can anyone offer me any ideas and/or advice on restructuring ritual to fit a generic eclectic practice? Or maybe something unique and beautiful?

Questions from Someone Outside Paganism

questions photoHello, first I’d like to preface these by saying I’m an illustration student, I have been working on a project that has lead to paganism, specifically Hellenistic paganism. After reading about the fall of polytheism, I wanted to make a series of illustrations about it’s modern revival. As part of my research, I was hoping to have a few questions answered. I hope it’s alright to ask these kind of things!

Answers from anyone would be appreciated.

1. What had first led you to paganism?

2. How has being part of pagan faith impacted you?

3. What kind of reaction do monotheists/atheists have toward you, if any?

4. Are your family and/or friends aware your faith?

Thanks in advance for any answers, I appreciate it immensely.